You left me. You left me for whatever cause you deemed so righteous.
You left me at a time when I needed you most. When I thought we had it all together.
Your cause made you leave me. You didn’t think I was there.
We were fantastic. We were the best.
Or so I thought.
Really, I just wanted it to work out. I am tired of searching. So very tired.
I think if I make myself better. If I work out and get thin. If I stop telling you how I feel. If I suppress. That will make you, Allison, go away. That the 9 long, very serious months we spent together will eventually fade and mean nothing to me anymore. Someone else who is just as (if not moreso) intelligent as you, would find me (a person who tries very hard and cares so much) as someone worth pursuing.
Like, I don’t think you all realize, dear followers, how much I give. When I care, I care hard. I give all I can. I DON’T GIVE UP ON PEOPLE. Especially people I care about. I stick it out. So if you’re afraid of someone running. If you’re worried that the next guy can’t handle it, just know that if I really see us as “us,” then I won’t let you down.
Allison’s mom died when she was too young. Of breast cancer. It kills me. Every day it brings me down thinking such a smart, sensitive girl had to live without her mother. It’s not fair. It’s not fair that shitty people like me have 3+ (if you want to count biological) parents, and the ones who deserve the most have the least. I love Allison, and not even in a romantic way. Not anymore. I love how strong she is. How she handles herself. She’s doing her thing.
I don’t know. It’s funny how those who have struggle the most tend to be the most beautiful.
First Kiss (creator asked 20 strangers to kiss for the first time)
This was great!
Fuck. That was good stuff. There’s nothing quite like seeing that look in someone’s eyes when you pull away from a kiss. You can see it on quite a few of their faces.
the sad thing is that I still do apparently.
or you can just admit you have a problem
Ok I’ve done this at a campground in Michigan City and it totally works.
Me leaving STL after this summer